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I totally forgot this page even existed, life ever since my last blog has been emotionally, physically and mentally challenging. Literally, I am not even joking.

To begin, I lost my Dad back in June. To cancer. When I found out, it hit me my body sense, I was numb, emotionless and in denial. I felt like I could change it, reverse it somehow. No I couldn’t. I had to be there for him, for the rest of the upcoming months he will be with us. He didn’t have long, his GP said he will have a year to live. No biggie. When I’d finish work I’d go over there, get him his favourite meals, and we’d just talk and watch our shows like how we use to when we were young. Bittersweet feeling. I saw his health deteriorate day by day forgetting where he put his things and his car. He called me up one afternoon and said he forgot where he parked his car, when I pulled up to the shops, he looked so helpless, he didn’t know what to do. What hurt me most is that he always parked his car in his usual place. We decided since then he can not drive ever again. He passed away suddenly on the 12/06/2020. I planned to finish work early that day at 12pm to get him a wheel chair at a health care facility cause he could not walk anymore. When I finished work I called my brother telling him I will be getting the wheel chair for him now and see you both in 30 minutes. “Kim, no. He went.” – Kevin. My heart dropped, my conscious head switched off, tears starting to fall. I rushed home. RUSHED. I didn’t give no care in the world. I had to. It was a rainy day. I got home, I saw him laying there on his bed. Mum wrapped him up in his blanket, my dog laid so closely to him. Chanting music was on. Ugh. I feel like crap writing like this. Anyways, he’s sisters were there discussing funeral plans. I didn’t give a shit about that I just wanted to be with him there, until they took him away. Our head monk came and did his long prayers for him. He’s body got collected around 7:00pm, the lights outside our front yard never worked but when they carried his body out, the lights flicked on and ever since it’s been working.

His funeral was on the 17/06/2019 – 18/06/2020.

Life been then has been crazy, I think about him every single day. I am not even joking. What can we do? It’s life, we don’t have to move on, moving on his like forgetting his even there. No, I am going on. Life goes on.